Expectations

i should, i must, i should have, why didn't i?

All these expressions have increasingly been finding place in my writing, in my thinking. More than anybody else's expectations, i am bogged down by my own set of expectations from myself. Sometimes, i feel i am caught between the way i am right now and the way i think i should be, ideally, of course.

This stems from the feeling that i should respect my individuality and be true to myself. On the other hand, i feel when i have the awareness that so & so behaviour will get me closer to being 'RIGHT', i should so act. Because my epectations are many. i wouldn't say big or small, because that again would be judgement.

i am trapped between the so-called RIGHTs and WRONGs of the society at large. It is not all that bad, i mean sometimes i manage quite fine. But i have noticed that i have become very minutely and sharply sensitive to criticisms or rather opinions.

Maybe the key lies in balance. Is it?

Inception

It will almost be one year since i started this blog without any posts. i don't know if it can be called a start or what but i registered one year back. In the middle of the night, after reading about blogging at certain places. i had thought to myself, enough of procrastinating, let me just start my blog. i did create my blog.

and now here i am with my first post.

My first post and i don't have any spectacularly great thoughts to let the world into.

But what the heck! it is just the beginning.

Watch out for the jottings of a genius :)